Love Story, Dharamshala.

I am going to share the reality of life. I have been keeping it inside for a long time. I don’t want my name to be known nor my photo taken but I want my story to be told. And since we met and since you do ‘Humans Of Dharamshala’, I want to let it all out and let all the people out there know. 

I have locked my feelings inside. I wanted to be perfect. I wanted to please everyone. I wanted to be the good guy. I wanted to be the happy guy. I wanted to be the best of the best! To become that, I have sacrificed so many things in life. You might be wondering why I wanted to be the best of the best. It was all for that girl. 

I wanted to have her and impress her! I wanted to be in her sight all the time! I wanted to be her Mr. Perfect. I wanted to be her light! I wanted to be the one and only man for her!

I came all the way to Dharamshala for her! I left my job! I left my family! I left my friends! Most of all, I left my home! Only because of her! 

Now, I am jobless. I don’t have a dream! I am lost! I am stuck! I am lonely! I depend on my family for pocket money! Simply because she has someone already! 

Life is strange! Love is sweet poison. I am a foolish man! I need to wake up and accept the reality! I have to be normal but IT IS NOT HAPPENING! 

It has been almost a year since I am in the town where she lives. I am slowly dying! Days are dark and nights are long. Alcohol has been a good company throughout this never ending painful journey. The journey, to find my self. I want to pour all of these feelings out to someone but I know I will be seen as a looser in front of others! I don’t want that! I bury my feelings. I bury myself. I bury everything. I let go of MY self!

Now, I guess, the time has come! I have to move on. I want to live my life for me and not for her! This place, for others it has a huge positive vibe but for me it is different. It kills me. I want don’t want to be here anymore. I am leaving soon. I am going back to my hometown. I am going back to my self. I am flying on 23 Oct of this year. 

Interview created by Kusang Tibet Tenzin

Edited by Yasmine Tanwidjaja-Pajares